Imaginary Alter Ego

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

If I could tap into my Alter Ego

Hello readers! This is a silly post on a silly topic. But it's constantly inside my head. 

I'm not sure how many people, if any, have this alternate world in their heads of what they wish their lives could be instead of reality. I'm pretty certain a lot of young people dream of being a celebrity or athlete, I know that's had to cross everyone's mind at least once in their life. I'm no different, except it doesn't have to do with fame at-all. Actually, quite the opposite. I know every human has free choice to live their life however they plan. Some awesome, some regrettable. But if I could go back in time with the knowledge that I have now, I'd prefer to fully live out my introvert lifestyle. Like, single-girl-living-alone lifestyle. This would all take place in my early 20's, and it would be amazing. 

Let's see, a typical day in my alternate world.. first of all, I'd live in a charming, quaint apartment. I'd have tea every morning at my small dining table, alone, quietly. I'd have music playing in the background. And since it'd be the morning, I'd have Belle and Sebastian playing to set the mood for the day. 

(I mean, how cute is this little kitchen?)

I wouldn't have to ask anyone if it was okay that I play music, or what band it was, because it'd just be me, myself, and I. And it'd be decent even if it was at 6:30am. 

I'd go out for a bike ride around the city and take my time because I wouldn't have to rush home to anyone. I'd go get coffee however many times a day felt right, and I'd meet new people daily. I'm pretty good with quick conversations, not chit-chat! Real conversations. Just shortened so it doesn't get awkward before too long. 

I would be wearing whatever I wanted because I wouldn't have to get anyone's approval or see their dismay with my end result. I would experiment with even more hairstyles and colors, because it wouldn't be age-inapporpriate and since I'd be single, I wouldn't be embarrassing anyone other than myself. But I wouldn't care. 

(cotton candy pink. so cute and yummy!)

Even though they already are in some sense, I would make it apparent that my style icons are Audrey Hepburn and Audrey Tautou. I feel like they are part of the ultimate single-girl-guide. 

I'd go out to eat at little café's as often as I'd like because my money would be spent on myself. 

(café where'd I'd get coffee and meet cool new people)

I'd go to museums without having to worry about anyone in my party rushing through it or breaking anything. I'd be more well-rounded with things that stood the test of time. Meeting new and different people would keep me satisfied being single. I wouldn't yearn for change because I'd get it every time I went out. 

Taking road trips would be a seasonal plan, maybe going solo or having a few friends for the adventure. It would be more costly moving every few years, so planning out-of-town trips would keep my juices flowing. This would all be funded because I'd be a flight attendant. So not only would I be traveling within my own country, but across the pond as well. I'd love to visit Japan, England, France, South Africa, Spain, any of the Polynesian islands, and Mexico. It would all be free flight because I'd work for the airlines anyway. And discounted hotels! 

(so stylish: 1960s flight attendants)

(road-tripping, maybe not in a buggy tho)

(my go-to ride to get around other countries)

Obviously I'd have time on my hands to fulfill projects that have been in my head, because I wouldn't have to take care of anyone else. The majority of my wardrobe would be custom-made by me. I already have a sewing machine, but I don't have time. In this alternate world, I would have so much free time to make coats, dresses, pants.. Everything I've mentally designed. 

And my apartment decor would be so cute and so do-not-touch-able. Does that even make sense? It would just look too adorable to mess up. Hello, did I mention above it'd be charming and quaint?

(some interior decor inspo)

And while I'd be cleaning my cozy joint, I'd put on another record of whatever music I prefer. Even if it's at midnight. Why so late? Because I'd be getting back from a late night stroll in the city by myself. 

It would be a leisurely life with tons of style and time. I'd meet enough people in my daily routine, that I'd be just fine coming home to an empty apartment. 

Now listen, I'm not saying I'm totally against my current real life (because obviously it's completely opposite of this dream), but I'm pretty sure this 20-year-old-self would live the single-girl life for about a decade, at least. She would have so many ideas to fulfill first, before settling down and having a family. She'd have goals to work towards with no distraction or deadline. It definitely sounds pretty selfish, but she is 20, and single, and has a life to live.

Now excuse me while I return to my reality of married life and parenthood. And let me just add, it's not a bad reality - it's definitely opposite of everything I mentioned, but I'm thankful nonetheless. I know many girls dream of this life I have, like I used to myself, I'm just saying the timing is a little different than my "dream world." 

Over and Out:

Sixties Pixie